I'm not sure where I am right now in terms of my weight levels but I know it's probably not lower than the last update I made on this blog. I still feel the food cravings from the last medication I was taking which was Abilify (2mg's) and I read that it takes almost a whole month for those cravings to go away.
It has been about 8-9 days since I stopped my medication and honestly after taking antipsychotics for about a decade almost I can see why I was never actually able to lose weight before. These medications are actually very bad for your health if your not at a healthy weight before hand. If your at a healthy weight when starting an antipsychotic you could gain quite a bit of weight if your not careful too.
Anyways, today I had a foot-long Meatball Sub from Subway (it's been my favorite for many years of my life so far) and then I had some sort of Cordon Bleu that you can get frozen out of the local supermarket. It's so cheap that I feel it's sort of worth getting if I need something to fill me up.
So in total that's around 950 calories + 500-600 calories if you read the calorie count on Google after searching for these meals there. It is for sure really frustrating to know that I have food cravings because of a medication I had stopped like about 9 days ago from this day.
I guess I have about 20 more days to go before I lose any weight and I have to struggle with these cravings, it's definitely not easy at all. Just knowing that because of a stupid medication I took I have cravings to eat more food because of that. I could of avoided this entirely if I actually did the research myself prior to starting this stupid medication.
I am not giving up and I'm going to keep moving forward with this diet (One Meal A Day) and in combination with about 1-2 hours a day walking for exercise. I'll definitely do my research next time before starting any medications, as this one took a huge chunk of time out of my weight loss progress.
I can definitely understand now why these Antipsychotics are so bad for people that have no choice but to take them just to control their symptoms. They can cause permanent side effects if taken for many years and the side effects while taking these medications make it unbearable to go through.
It's not a good feeling going for walks every day knowing that this exercise I'm getting is just going down the drain all because of a stupid medication that I wanted to take and it's going to take about 2-3 more weeks for the side effects to go away. Going forward I am only going to take the mandatory medications that I know won't bother me like this.
I can't imagine how many people out there in this world are going through this weight gain problem all throughout their lives, while having to motivate themselves to lose the weight after gaining it (for me it took many years to get to where I am now and I'm still working at it).
I truly believe I have an eating disorder, and the way I look right now is affecting me in my every day life which I just can't fix until I lose it all back again. I don't like to sound like I'm complaining about my life or anything but I just want people reading my blog to know what it's like to go through a life of being overweight.
I can honestly say that losing weight takes life dedication and for some people that are overweight, they just can't motivate themselves to lose anything at all but they are capable of going to school full time and getting a college degree. I myself can't take a course for more than a year and so I guess I have mastered the weight loss game in life.
Everyone is different, so I guess all I can say is do what you can. You can definitely achieve anything if you put your mind to it, and as long as you don't give up you will succeed.
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